Concerned

I realize I have not wrote on this blogger for a very long time. I do have another which I tend to update frequently, but it is of a personal, intimate nature, but I will link it; if you choose to read that side of my self, the more sexual ( which I am not ashamed of) then by all means be my guest.
Today I had the urge to write in this, to write to the people who read this. I know, there are not many of you, but regardless, I had the urge of educating today.
A few days ago I had a discussion with a very close priest and friend of mine, with wonderful gifts. He mentioned something I did back in 2003, before I met or spoke to him. Something I did which has, to a sense, disconnected me from my personal spirit, or Qareen.

I had to think back. What an earth did I do around September time of 2003! Then it hit me. The most worst thing happened when I had just turned 14, abuse of kind, sexual. It was when my life started to go really down hill. I was angry. I was very angry, and in that anger, hurt and frustration I dedicated myself to "Satan". This may not be new to you. But I would like to say "Satan" is not Enki in anyway shape or form. And if you know your sumerian history, and mythology you would know this.
They are not the same being and should *NEVER*
be called upon as the same being.

Enki is a kind, benevolent deity; a deity of the abyss/deep waters; of creation,fertility,creativity and magic. He is smart, he has cunning when needs be to help humanity and I am a very lucky person to be able to serve him and see him as he is. THE God, in all his masculinity as a god should be. I am honored and thoroughly proud of being a priestess to him, and I am ever grateful that he has led me from a path of self-destruction,doubt and darkness in to truth,honesty, love and light.

Now you may argue until you're blue in the face to try and deny what I am saying, and I will educate and explain to you with logic and understanding, with facts, and evidence that Enki is *NOT* Satan. You may argue, "curse" and abuse me, and I will sit quite calmly and explain to you why he is not. But this is not why I am writing this, I am writing this because when I made a pact, it was with "Satan".

Now I am not a Satanist, I thought I broke that bond along time ago when I re-dedicated myself to ENKI, in the right and correct way and manner, but time here, is not like it within the realm of spirits, is it? The bond will need to be broken through a way which could potentially hurt me. Mentally and physically, so I have to wait for certain things.

The reason why I am writing this blog is because I do not wish for other young children, yes children ( I was a child!) to go on to certain websites and think that is the answer to their pain and anger, because it is not. Getting in to things you do not understand will have repercussions when you are older. When you reach the age I am at now, you think back and wonder "What an earth was I thinking?" But I was only a child, with no one to turn to, and alot of pain in my life I didn't understand. These websites, these people.. They pray on children, or young, vulnerable adults, and before you know it, you're up to your eyes in things that are A.) Dangerous B.) You don't know how to get out of and C.) Don't know anything about.

The websites in general I will not name, but they promote Satanism ( obviously), along with racism, bigotry and discrimination against other religions, and people. I am an Enkian, this is true, I do not follow other religions, but I have made my peace with people who follow a different path to me, be they Jews, Muslims or Christians. I respect ( may not agree) their opinions and views and do not condone violence towards them in anyway. I'm a pacifist, and find violence distasteful.

I love the life I lead, I love the pureness of it, and I love, above all else serving Enki. There is nothing quite like it. I love Sumerian, I love Akkadian and Babylonian, I love the archaeology, history and mythology side and I love creating sumerian invocations to the god I love. I also serve the others int he pantheon; Enlil, Inanna, Utu, Mami, Marduk,An and Ki, along with other gods. But I am specifically dedicated to Enki. He is my patron god.

I guess the urge I had to write today, is not only about educating, but about helping. I want people to know if they are interested in Enki, I am and can teach about him, and I know people who would gladly help, With resources, facts, evidence, as well as the spiritual side of things. In a safe and secure manner. I would also like to discourage people away from these other dangerous sites who promote disgusting things. If you have questions ASK, if you want help ASK. Do not seek something which will hurt you more in the future. We are here. I am here to help, to teach and to even be taught. But understanding, these websites are not your only resort. Seek out TRUTH before you seek out anything.

Oh! Yes before I forget my other blogger http://discreetsubmissive.blogspot.com/ of course this one is optional! :)