Nightly Prayers and Meditations; 1 of 2

Before I begin I need to apologise for my extremely long absence. Life has a way of getting between what I do and what I write. I do, however, try to balance the two, although, perhaps I do not have the time as much now as I did before to write about it.
It would seem from a quick review of what I have previously written, I have not updated the ritual and prayer side of things; there is not near enough Sumerian, which I have worked on previously, on this blog as there should be.
I will start with simplicity to get myself back in the motion of writing. The prayers, and mediation done both on the weekends (Monday-Tuesday if I am not at home) and at night. So let us begin.

Before any words are spoken I will always kiss my finger to my fore head and in. Sweeping motion bringing it to my heart before kneeling prostrate before my altar( which encompasses the pantheon I worship, not just Enki.), and with this I will utter;

  "Hail my Lord Enki;

Enki that is,

Enki that was

Enki that is to be,

God and lord Enki, please watch over me."

Rise briefly, repeating the same hand motions as the above before continuing on with the whole prayer, involving the whole pantheon this time;

"Hail my Lord Enlil,

Hail my lady Inanna,

Hail my lord Utu,

Hail my lady Mami,

Hail my lord Marduk 

Hail my lord 

An 

Hail my lady Ki."

Repeating the hand motions and raising yourself a little on your knees I will then do a separate prayer  to Inanna. Although I am a child of Enki, a child of Wisdom, I am also a daughter of Inanna, a daughter of love. Her practices are sacred to me, as is her worship. 

"Belet Ishtariyya 

My light is your light.

Be let Ishtariyya

My love is your love.

Be let Ishtariyya

My life is your life."

This is repeated seven times with your head bowed palms facing upwards, towards the heavens, and seven times with your palms held up in a position of surrender, or as if you were palm to Palm facing someone.  I do this positioning directly facing my effigy of Inanna. 

Concerned

I realize I have not wrote on this blogger for a very long time. I do have another which I tend to update frequently, but it is of a personal, intimate nature, but I will link it; if you choose to read that side of my self, the more sexual ( which I am not ashamed of) then by all means be my guest.
Today I had the urge to write in this, to write to the people who read this. I know, there are not many of you, but regardless, I had the urge of educating today.
A few days ago I had a discussion with a very close priest and friend of mine, with wonderful gifts. He mentioned something I did back in 2003, before I met or spoke to him. Something I did which has, to a sense, disconnected me from my personal spirit, or Qareen.

I had to think back. What an earth did I do around September time of 2003! Then it hit me. The most worst thing happened when I had just turned 14, abuse of kind, sexual. It was when my life started to go really down hill. I was angry. I was very angry, and in that anger, hurt and frustration I dedicated myself to "Satan". This may not be new to you. But I would like to say "Satan" is not Enki in anyway shape or form. And if you know your sumerian history, and mythology you would know this.
They are not the same being and should *NEVER*
be called upon as the same being.

Enki is a kind, benevolent deity; a deity of the abyss/deep waters; of creation,fertility,creativity and magic. He is smart, he has cunning when needs be to help humanity and I am a very lucky person to be able to serve him and see him as he is. THE God, in all his masculinity as a god should be. I am honored and thoroughly proud of being a priestess to him, and I am ever grateful that he has led me from a path of self-destruction,doubt and darkness in to truth,honesty, love and light.

Now you may argue until you're blue in the face to try and deny what I am saying, and I will educate and explain to you with logic and understanding, with facts, and evidence that Enki is *NOT* Satan. You may argue, "curse" and abuse me, and I will sit quite calmly and explain to you why he is not. But this is not why I am writing this, I am writing this because when I made a pact, it was with "Satan".

Now I am not a Satanist, I thought I broke that bond along time ago when I re-dedicated myself to ENKI, in the right and correct way and manner, but time here, is not like it within the realm of spirits, is it? The bond will need to be broken through a way which could potentially hurt me. Mentally and physically, so I have to wait for certain things.

The reason why I am writing this blog is because I do not wish for other young children, yes children ( I was a child!) to go on to certain websites and think that is the answer to their pain and anger, because it is not. Getting in to things you do not understand will have repercussions when you are older. When you reach the age I am at now, you think back and wonder "What an earth was I thinking?" But I was only a child, with no one to turn to, and alot of pain in my life I didn't understand. These websites, these people.. They pray on children, or young, vulnerable adults, and before you know it, you're up to your eyes in things that are A.) Dangerous B.) You don't know how to get out of and C.) Don't know anything about.

The websites in general I will not name, but they promote Satanism ( obviously), along with racism, bigotry and discrimination against other religions, and people. I am an Enkian, this is true, I do not follow other religions, but I have made my peace with people who follow a different path to me, be they Jews, Muslims or Christians. I respect ( may not agree) their opinions and views and do not condone violence towards them in anyway. I'm a pacifist, and find violence distasteful.

I love the life I lead, I love the pureness of it, and I love, above all else serving Enki. There is nothing quite like it. I love Sumerian, I love Akkadian and Babylonian, I love the archaeology, history and mythology side and I love creating sumerian invocations to the god I love. I also serve the others int he pantheon; Enlil, Inanna, Utu, Mami, Marduk,An and Ki, along with other gods. But I am specifically dedicated to Enki. He is my patron god.

I guess the urge I had to write today, is not only about educating, but about helping. I want people to know if they are interested in Enki, I am and can teach about him, and I know people who would gladly help, With resources, facts, evidence, as well as the spiritual side of things. In a safe and secure manner. I would also like to discourage people away from these other dangerous sites who promote disgusting things. If you have questions ASK, if you want help ASK. Do not seek something which will hurt you more in the future. We are here. I am here to help, to teach and to even be taught. But understanding, these websites are not your only resort. Seek out TRUTH before you seek out anything.

Oh! Yes before I forget my other blogger http://discreetsubmissive.blogspot.com/ of course this one is optional! :)

History of Sumer

The history of Sumer from Prehistoric Ubaid & Uruk Periods, spanned over a time of 3000 years-beginning with the first settlement at Eridu,( 5th-3rd Milleninnia) Enki’s main City, and ending with the downfall of the Third dynasty of Ur(around 2004BCE). Between that time and the rise of Babylon i.e. more a transition period of Amorite, Until the early rise of Babylonia in the early 2nd Millennium BC.
Situated in southern Mespotamia (modern day Iraq). It is, indeed, believed to be the earliest known civilization in the world, baring the name “Cradle of civilization”.
The Sumerian city states rose to power during the prehistoric Ubaid & Uruk periods. The history of Sumer reaches back to the 26th century BC, but records of anything earlier remains obscure until early Dynastic III Period,ca.
Classic Sumer ends with the rise of Akkad ( Akkadian Empire), in the 23rd century BC.
Ref: http://bruceowen.com/emciv/341-06f-12-EarlyDynastic.pdf

Situated between the Tigiris and Euphrates, upon the fertile crescent by 5000BCE the Sumerians were able to develop core agricultural techniques , including cultivation of land, organized irrigation and monocropping. The Sumerians managed to adopt agricultural way of life, which depended heavily upon irrigation- this was mastered by the use of shadufs, canals, channels, dykes, weirs asd reservoirs.
From 2600BCE on ward, the Sumerians could write multiplication tables on clay tablets and deal with geometrical exercises and division problems. 2700-2300BCE saw the first appearances of the Abacus (a tablet placed horizontally on top of the capital of a column as an aid in supporting the architrave). The Sumerians were, indeed, the first to use a place value numeral system,find the area of a triangle and the volume of a cube.

Such creations and examples of Sumerian technology are as follows: Cuneiform ,arithmetic and geometry, irrigation systems, Sumerian Boats, lunarsolar calendar, bronze, leather, saws, chisels, hammers, nails, pins, rings, hoes, axes, knives, arrowheads, swords, glue, daggers, waterskins, bags, harnesses, armour, quivers, war chariots, scabbards, sandals, boots, harpoons,Beer, (other:Astronomy,Astrology,granary).
The constant wars between neighbouring Sumerian city states helped develop the military technology and techniques to a higher level . The first war recorded in history was between Lagash and Umma ca.2525 BC sat 18 miles apart and feuded for generations over the fertile region known as Gu'edena. In 2525, King Eannatum of Lagash defeated Umma using armored soldiers in phalanx formations, and chariots pulled by onagers (wild asses), an invention frequently credited to the Sumerians .

Enkian by 'Definition'.

I am not one for names, but if I were to characterise us under one name it would be "Enkians". We are believers in the Lord God Enki, Father of Creation,fertility,sweetwaters. Of wisdom & knowledge,creativity and magic. But some of us do follow the the Seven Gods who Decree.
As Enkians we strive to be the best we can be, we follow only the traditions of the old. We follow Sumer and we learn from the past to better our future. What knowledge we have, we have gained from that which was- Cuniform tablets, and from the knowledge which has been past of down from generation to generation. From the oldest of Tribes.We are creative,alternative thinkers, who see beyound the obvious.
Enkians are people who believes in and follow the religious percepts put forth by Enki and His Divine Messengers, the Abgal/Apkallu, and the guidance of his son Silikmuludug (Asar / Aarduk). We are people that hold these religious tenants and doctrines sacred to ourselves and strive to uphold them in our lives and to model them in our behavior. We are those who attend and hold rites of worship as ordained by Enki throughout the ages and commit ourselves to our faith wholeheartedly throughout out lives.We live, we learn,we love, we grow.
We are not "Satanists", we do not follow Sitchin and/or his theories. We do NOT promote or encourage violence,prejudice discrimitaion or racisim. We encourage equality,kindness and understanding.No two people are the same, and each have their own gifts to share,give and cherish.
We are our own. We strive to learn both Spiritualy and mentally from what doctrines we have, and what the Abgal/Apkallu have taught civilization, many centuries ago. We respect others and/or their beliefs, and help those whom wish to be taught in the ways of Enki and his Abgal/Apkallu.
We welcome & encourage those who wish to learn,grow & understand.

Responsible for our own actions.

Today I was discussing something with a friend. Certain fears I had for not reaching expectations in trying to help others. Some of us are on certain courses, or set certain tasks to help people, but what happens if that person doesn't want to be helped? Or chooses not to listen to what the divine have to say?

I cannot help but to take it personally if someone does not heed a warning, or want to be helped- but as my lovely friend said "You cannot help those who do not want to be helped, you can't guide those who seek to remain blind." It leaves a dilemma. We can tell people of the messages we are delivered, but we cannot enforce people to follow them. Each person is responsible for their own will and action. They can heed the advice we give them, they can follow it, if they choose. But at the end of the day, we cannot enforce. I do not think I would even want to enforce it.
The great thing about serving Enki are his messages. As much as I try to do as asked, sometimes it is impossible for me to be able to do aught else then to SAY what is needed to be said.

I can be hard on myself as much as I like, it does not mean the person will care, take notice or even listen. All I can do is what is asked of me.
The best we can do for someone is lay the fruits on the table, whether they choose to eat is entirely up to them.
Just as I am responsible for passing on messages ( relevant or not), people have their own responsibility to receive them upon deaf or open ears.
A lesson I will learn.

New Temple?

I've been wagering on this for a while now, but having no resources to make it come about.. Until yesterday. I've been searching for the right place to situate a temple, my imagination has been running riot- and half the places I cant afford, or are not well situated for privacy.
Yesterday me and a friend came across a small cave situated in Backwell, well hidden, and kept pretty much a secret. I think this is the most perfect setting we could've found. It is actually owned by the woodland trust, so as long as we keep it clean, tidy all should be well to set one up there.
Of course it will need a Blessing and purification Ritual, but I have high hopes for it- my greatest concern is if we do invest alot of time and effort in to erecting a temple from this ancient piece, some ignorant person will come along and sabotage it.

With the knowledge that this cave was used as a temple 2000+ years ago, one must respect the spiritual and archaeological aspects of the Cave.
I know I am not the only one to be privy to it's whereabouts, so one must understand, if all goes well... And I do manage to get as far as i'd like, what is the likelihood that all my effort will be swiftly removed?

My eyes and heart are set on that place.. I will take a few things up this week, just to see how well they keep.

My Pledge to Enki & Inanna

To Enki I pledge to hence forth do your duties in as much depth and detail as I can. I will follow and always follow the path you have set for me, and release all animosities I hold or have held for others, now and in the past.
I will endeavour myself to be helpful to my kin, to become better in all ways, and to aspire to be as you will(ed) in all things.
To give time and affection when needed, to whom may need it-forever I am your child, forever I shall do thus. for now and forever my soul is yours. This is my pledge to you;


* To be all that I can be.
* To have faith in myself & others.
* To always walk the path you have set, despite where it may go.
*To be truthful and honest with those around me and to myself above all.
* To be helpful, kind and attentive to the needs of others & thoughtful of thier feelings
* To gain knowledge where I might and use it for that which may help others & myself.
* To share advise and give council to those which ask and/or need it.

For you are Lord of the Earth, my Patron God, whom I love and adore above all else. Myself purely dedicated to your love and wisdom. Forever let it be so, forever I am your child, forever I shall do thus.



To you may Lady Inanna I give a pledge also, for I am a daughter of yours too-my heart indebted always to the whims of you charm(s)- for I to love you, and will always love you and do what I can to abide by the laws of love;


* To follow my heart and trust what the sisters of the light may say.
* To fight as fierce as your lions for those I love
* To yeild to desire , but not let it over power me.
*To follow always the ways of love & light
* To trust always in the ways of love & light
*To trust always in my instincts and what they reveal
* To love freely,wholly & truthfully and never forget those i've loved and the love i've felt for others.

For you are the ultimate and supreme Queen of Heaven & Earth; Mother of Life and I, your child forever I shall do this, forever I shall do thus.

LLLS